people

People become more and more of a mystery to me. i try to understand why they do the things they do and then they change things up on me. I try to be a good fun loving person but all of this loss is not helping. I am loosing people left and right and I am starting to shut people out again for fear of being broken heart-ed yet again. i just see one after another to leave, so whats the point of opening up anymore. I'm tired, and I'm loosing my patients for everyone. i expect the worst because of it, and because of the destructive power of people. i am just starting to loose hope in people and the possibility of me not being alone